Lately, I have been missing my grandpa Forrest aka Kokiepop a lot. When I asked my mom why she called him that she said, “Because he always had soda pop.” See, he was a very thoughtful man because he always stocked up on mom’s favorite and mine. Hers being Coke, and mine, well, Sunkist orange. Kokiepop loved Sunkist orange, in fact he’s the reason I fell in love with it. In the garage, hidden behind a huge, wooden sliding door full of canned goods, there was always soda pop. Sometimes I would sneak an extra since I was allowed only one can per visit. Thug life. Then he and I would go hang out in his office for a bit. He would read the newspaper and fill out the crossword puzzle. Meanwhile, I would stare at his Pez collection and mess with it. On his workstation table you’d find two glasses with orange soda with cozies slipped on them, resting on coasters. He was crazy about his cozies and coasters.
I was crazy about him. He was my best friend, other than my dad. They were so much alike, I guess that’s why I was so fond of my grandpa because my dad was awesome too. Like father, like son. My Kokiepop and I did everything together. I was his first grandchild and I knew I meant the world to him. From the time I was born to about 6 years old I remained very close with him. When I was 6, my parents split and I lived with mom. We bounced around a lot while I was growing up and I didn’t get to see or talk to my grandpa much.
Throughout the years, a lot of shit happened and I pretty much became non-existent to my dad’s side of the family. Although, my love for my grandpa always remained and I never thought of him differently. Unlike the rest of my family..they’re like Alopecia..the little devils. Anyways, not the point….
On January 25th, 2011 Kokiepop passed away. I wasn’t informed until 2 or 3 months had already passed. I was on my lunch break at work and was on the phone with my sister Bella. She mentioned the family was in Sacramento recently because Kokiepop died. I LOST MY SHIT. If I may say so, I am quite the damn professional at work, but I lost it. I had her put dad on the phone. When I asked about Kokipop, he sounded so non-chalant. “Oh yeah, he passed away in January.” Foreal, “oh yeah?” Unbelievable. (Oh, and just a quick side note, my dad and I are estranged too, which doesn’t help.)
When I asked if he was buried or cremated, the answer I got wasn’t much of anything. “Uh, I don’t know.” HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW? He was your father, what??? So, for the past 6 years I have settled for “Uh, I don’t know.” Earlier today, I did some research and stumbled upon Kokiepop’s burial information. This information had not been available in the past but now that I have it, I’m planning. I’m planning to visit him in Orange County.
Omg, honestly, I thought I was going to cry while writing this but I think I ran out of tears. I cried for a good 15 minutes before I started writing this and now I’m just so exhausted. Oh, and hungry. I find crying makes me tired and hungry. Does that happen to you? Luckily, I have Kleenex nearby and chocolate cake. With that being said, it’s 11:4o pm and I’m gonna eat some fuckin’ cake.